was sick again

past month i wasnt feeling well, off & on & knowing i had an appt already prior made for follow up of month before so tried to hold out, especially since we're car-less. but a day before my appt, i wound up walking in as emergency, hadnt eaten in week, fever of 102 previous nite and feeling near death. they expedite bloodwork & get me on levaquin antibiotics... a drug given only in severe & life threatening infections. only 5 pills that's how strong they were. 'we'll call with blood work results', but didnt so we call & were told the 'results are on his desk and we'll call tomorrow'...and didnt so hubby calls back & one thing leads to another after being told hubby cant get info for patient, they would not have results back so fast, and they dont even give results out on the phone... so.. hearing this, i in the bkgrd said something, LAUGHING, involving one bad word and next thing we know,  the dr gets on & reprimands hubby for vulgarity! hubby tells him that he didnt say anything and dr asks then what did shirley say? hubby says she wasnt even on the phone!!!!! dr ends the call with 'well if you need to know anything more we'll call you, til then, just have her finish those pills til our next appt.' ...... excuse me, if i need to know anyhting more? like my frigging blood results???!!! so i am livid, i left it slide all week, by not calling back and demanding my info as i KNOW it is illegal for them to withhold any info when patient requests it!!!!! not looking forward to tomorrow's appt. but i will NOT be bullied by my neighbors, 'friends' on or offline & certainly not by the medical healthcare system who wants to treat us as a money making business as opposed to the patients that we are! FORGIVE US, the patients who are stressed, upset, depressed and when THE DR & STAFF  add to it, i curse, and not curse after curse, in anger, it was one WORD with laughter!!! cuz GOD FORBID i felt better, felt strong enough to even speak,not holler, just speak, but dont understand the patient's side, when you've got an immature unprofessional staff to protect! so wish me luck or not. as much as i may not look forward to it, i will get thru and deal with it, even if i have to walk outta there with my own file & find someone else. or i may even say to hell with the medical 'profession' completely and go holistic!

have a wonderful mother's day

sad to have come to this

been going thru some real hard times these past 3-4 yrs while hubby cannot find a paying job anywhere, son basically cant move out cuz he's our support, we want to get out of this area, hubby & son catch the bus after walking a 2mile hike thruout the winter, but now summer is approaching  & more than you can or would want to imagine.but as hard as it's been, i AM trying to keep my spirits up with crafting,even tho the creative juices dont flow easily under stress or depression. and i am not one for expecting anything from anyone, especially in today's society, but (and here's where it might get ugly, so you can decide to stop reading here) it hit me that i've been in scrapbooking online community for close to 10 yrs, always being the canary who sings the beautiful song to uplift any & everyone whether needed or not. and been TOLD that very thing by others who always loved getting my comments of encouragement!!!!
well where the H*LL is mine while i am suffering thru not knowing if we're EVER gonna even be able to get another car, since ours died back in aug or sept!! where's MY support, love, encouraging words??
now i will take the time to thank Holly &Valinda, who never seems to forget one in need! THANK YOU, dear friend, you will always & forever be in my heart! xoox
now please dont take me the wrong way by thinking that i am saying the rest of ya are crap, im not, i love ya all or wouldnt have been there for you ever, but i am not only hurting from day to day surviving, but i am hurt that while this economy may not effect you as hard, that i am so easily forgotten about.
there have been a few of ya who wanted to chat by phone but understand depression & you'll understand why the calls never happened, cuz i want to talk, obviously, as i am here and now.
but did one of ya take the time to do that? or even send a card, that ya'all are making like machines? how about an email, no postage stamp needed?!!!! um, let me think for a se, dont even need that second NO!
i will get over it, i am a big girl but just because this is my blog, i will only be honest here!
so there it is, it's been said, and i may even regret saying any of these words that might hurt someone else but again, i will get over it...as you all seem to have gotten over me when the freebies & happiness stopped.
at this point, im not even sure if i will keep this blog going. will decide that later.
just thought i'd share how i feel, like it or not.... again, my choice to have balls enough to say it, right or wrong.
there are those out there who seem to have the world on a string & try to keep up the facade about caring about those who are less fortunate, just so it's said, the veil has become transparent & i see the truth.

been awhile

i been trying to my spirits up and even getting some crafting done, slowly but surely. i do visit Spyder's corner for fun hand drawn digis and recently had fun with a little bear! with a little help from hubby & a trip to the dollar store! he came across some really cool, 3d, slightly glittered stickers. here's the card: apologies for the crappy photo but you can see the top right sticker's glitter anyway. i havent completed the inside of the card yet but i love how it's turned out. i also visit scherenschnitte for some pretty awesome papercuts and am in process of making this card: the actual papercut itself is not yet glued down and looks crooked for the photo but not to worry, it'll be fixed. well that's what i have been up to doing. hope you have an awesome weekend!

stopping in to

say HAPPY Spring!
i made a li'l chick to share, hope you enjoy.
spring chick

new spring trees

well while im laid up YET again with this nasty broken toe, i thought i might as well start doodling. here's my spring tree version cause i love the spring. one with trees and one with trees & flowers, take one or both and have fun. commercial or personal use

living it up now

well not really, yesterday i broke my baby toe. i know, what the h*ll is what i said..after a few tears & a few other choice words.
oh well, i sure hope your world is better.