sad to have come to this

been going thru some real hard times these past 3-4 yrs while hubby cannot find a paying job anywhere, son basically cant move out cuz he's our support, we want to get out of this area, hubby & son catch the bus after walking a 2mile hike thruout the winter, but now summer is approaching  & more than you can or would want to imagine.but as hard as it's been, i AM trying to keep my spirits up with crafting,even tho the creative juices dont flow easily under stress or depression. and i am not one for expecting anything from anyone, especially in today's society, but (and here's where it might get ugly, so you can decide to stop reading here) it hit me that i've been in scrapbooking online community for close to 10 yrs, always being the canary who sings the beautiful song to uplift any & everyone whether needed or not. and been TOLD that very thing by others who always loved getting my comments of encouragement!!!!
well where the H*LL is mine while i am suffering thru not knowing if we're EVER gonna even be able to get another car, since ours died back in aug or sept!! where's MY support, love, encouraging words??
now i will take the time to thank Holly &Valinda, who never seems to forget one in need! THANK YOU, dear friend, you will always & forever be in my heart! xoox
now please dont take me the wrong way by thinking that i am saying the rest of ya are crap, im not, i love ya all or wouldnt have been there for you ever, but i am not only hurting from day to day surviving, but i am hurt that while this economy may not effect you as hard, that i am so easily forgotten about.
there have been a few of ya who wanted to chat by phone but understand depression & you'll understand why the calls never happened, cuz i want to talk, obviously, as i am here and now.
but did one of ya take the time to do that? or even send a card, that ya'all are making like machines? how about an email, no postage stamp needed?!!!! um, let me think for a se, dont even need that second NO!
i will get over it, i am a big girl but just because this is my blog, i will only be honest here!
so there it is, it's been said, and i may even regret saying any of these words that might hurt someone else but again, i will get over it...as you all seem to have gotten over me when the freebies & happiness stopped.
at this point, im not even sure if i will keep this blog going. will decide that later.
just thought i'd share how i feel, like it or not.... again, my choice to have balls enough to say it, right or wrong.
there are those out there who seem to have the world on a string & try to keep up the facade about caring about those who are less fortunate, just so it's said, the veil has become transparent & i see the truth.