not much of an update

but i thought i would let ya know that hubby's been on the phone trying to find a neurologist out here, that accepts medical. sigh!! seems we may have to go an hour or more away so i PRAY they dont have to hospitalize me there. but when hubby gets back home i am gonna suggest a chiropractor since all my misery seems to have started about 3 yrs ago since i torqued my back in AZ. could be the start of it all, on top of the stress of course, of hubby not being able to find work. i do know that God will provide & things will work out but if i can be frank with you, i am sooo done with being in constant pain going on 3 weeks now. i just want to sleep my life away so i am not so much of a burden on my family.
older son got pissed, at end of march & cut me, his brother & of course my hubby, out of his life. wont reply even when i sent a happy birthday email. did it within the week of finding out i have copd now. maybe he cant handle not being here to help, like his young bro, but i honestly dont know. just know it cannot stay this way too much longer.i sincerely cannot handle anymore, hell, i feel im losing, with ALL we got going on. but i do believe God wont give one too much that they cant handle. just feel like i am there!!
well, i am off before i babble anymore. have a great day & i will keep ya posted, as it goes. hugs, my friends.