what a day!

well after my hospital scare, we both had quick smoking COLD turkey, as they say. tho it wasn't easy, we did it... til today... over a week and one day breaks the both of us!! started this morning, i go to do my hunger clicks and cant connect. i try several sites thinking one might be overloaded and nothing loads and it takes forever to get these pages to not load fully at all. it boils down to 3 or 4 calls which took about 2 hours each time, not getting much cooperation and having to tell them no, this is NOT acceptable & at least three times we were connected to higher level tech, after much debating with lower techs to do so. after 12 hrs i still cannot connect to most sites and took a long time to get in to blog. so now i will just say HUGHNET internet service is HORRIBLE! pass the word! they dont offer much help and arent easy to deal with. best they can offer is a small discount for 3 months along with the shitty service!! so then hubby goes off to get son from work & car breaks down. had to have it towed to house, dont know what's wrong and havent the money to fix it anyway. got an acquaintance to take son to work tomorrow but just what are we suppose to do? God has NEVER put us thru more than we can handle but this IS!!!! my nerves are so shot that between, what did they say, slight dehydration caused my breathing faster which caused a muscle spasm which scared me into paralysis for 4 hours. yea, and this helps!!!
we want so badly to move and have for over 3 years now, just AS we started looking at houses, hubby lost his job. i honestly dont know how much more i can hold on.