Happy October

yea, i know i'm a few days late but it's still the first monday. hehe not a month i like to recognize, anymore, it's my birthday month...yep, in about a week, again. ugh. well, it doesnt matter since i'm holding at 49! lol
we still dont have a car running, hubby rented one a few days tho...i still didnt go out...been about 3 months now. just dont feel much like it. didnt get much of a summer last year cuz of muscle pains & also this year, different muscles & yet no one knows what it is. (shrugs shoulders) that & the meds they had me on, just put me in a place of being sooooo depressed & angry that i feel im now just feeling more like myself, but still not dealing with too much. cant take the stress of all this, lately but dealing...by the Grace of God, im positive of THAT much, the rest, not soooo much. lol
just thought i'd be in a better situation by the time i reached this age, but when things dont work they way they were expected, all one can do it deal with it or b*tch... i do both :) gotten real good at the latter, too! lol
oh well, just want ya'all to know im doing ok, even tho i still havent seen the dr. thank YOU for your much appreciated & welcomed prayers. hugs